So yeah, rough morning. I ended up going to Kari's house last night to watch some TV. She texted with me while I was sitting in the Suburban blubbering. We watched an episode of Glee, and it made me feel better. I cam home, and slept on the couch because I didn't wanna go back in my room. And felt like crap when I woke up.
I got the kids ready for school, and didn't even see CPT as he left for work. Yeah, what a grand existence... Something had to change. I threw on some hiking clothes, and spent the rest of the morning before the hike lying on my bed texting my friends and waiting for the time to pass. Napping on and off between texts. I'm a real winner, you know...
Kari and Erin came to pick me up at 8:30am, and I had a NICE hike. It was a more difficult trail than last week, and it really was a great workout. I had my chance to girl vent, and felt better after. I got home, and texted with Kim for a bit. She wasn't feeling well AT all. She had a monster headache. So I brought her over some meds. Her hubby had JUST got home, so I stayed and chatted for a few minutes. But not too long.
Mine texted and said that he was on his way, so I prepared myself for battle round 3, and walked back home. And he met me at the door with a hug, and said that he was sorry, and that he didn't wanna fight, and that we needed to work on communication. That we just weren't lining up on what we were both trying to get across. That he wasn't trying to hurt my feelings. And it helped. It really did. He's still said some things recently that really made me mad and that have really hurt my feelings, but he's trying. And we're gonna try and squeeze in an appointment with our original therapist and see if that doesn't help. He's SUPER good. And we should be able to get this taken care of. There's no reason, when two people are trying for the same goal, that they can't make it work, right??? As long as both individuals are tying their best to make it work??? I'm a firm believer in that. And neither one of us has thrown in the towel.
Anyway, at 3:30pm, we both walked over to the Bus Stop to get the kids, then at 4pm, we loaded up and got Joe and Eme off to Skating. Jake wasn't home yet, and Tom and Jim voted to stay home. I told Tom that he had to help Jim with his bike, then take him to the park for a while, and he agreed to that. To get some exercise. It was a beautiful winter day in El Paso. Sunny and 66! Can't beat that for winter!
We went to the ice skating rink, and had a blast. Kari and I talked, and CPT and the kids skated. Works for me :) After skating, we loaded back up in the old Suburban, and headed to the PX. I needed to pick up my prescription. It's been filled since Monday. And I know they don't hold it forever. And since I took my last anti-depressant today, I really needed it...
I got that filled, then we got some ice cream, then we got some Taco Bell to take home to the kids, then it was back home. CPT played guitar for a bit up in the kids room, and I blogged, or designed, or whatever i did. i can't remember. I had a headache by then. from all of the fighting earlier in the day - or bad feelings, or crying, or whatever. It takes a toll on the body, you know!
And we were gonna go to Walmart and buy stuff for the Unit thing tomorrow, but I felt like crap. So after the kids went to bed, he went by himself. I don't think he was too happy about that, but seriously, if I move, I may blow chunks. Seriously... i can't control when the headaches come. I'm taking meds for that, but it doesn't completely wipe them out. It just lowers the occurrence... sigh. Maybe I was reading too much into it... That's probably it. I'm a little sensitive to it these days :)
So, tomorrow. We are doing a battery thingy. And I'm not happy about it. It should be a command sponsored event. But the CDR (Commander) didn't wanna pay. So she is making her 1LT's pay for it. And telling them that it's a "promotion party" that they never paid for from a year and a half ago. But it's not. It's a CDR sponsored event for the whole battery and their families. Yeah, if you don't speak army, you don't get it. But it makes me mad. She's using her influence as their CDR to get my husband to spend his money on something that he shouldn't have to do. And it's gonna be almost $100 on this stupid party when it's all said and done. I have better things to spend my $100 on... I don't wanna go tomorrow. I'm afraid that I'll say something to her. Something inappropriate. Something rude. And make CPT look bad. Real bad. Something that I can't take back. I'm not good at keeping my mouth shut these days.... Maybe I should just stay home... But CPT really wants me there... Hmmm, we shall see...
Still no pay pal money. I'm hoping that it comes in tomorrow! I really want my new truck! It's SO awesome :)
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Love the alphas! Thanks for sharing!
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