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Saturday, September 18, 2010

Dear Bethany...HURRY HOME!

Captain America stopped by tonight to drop off a note from Bethany. I am truly missing my friend! Sigh...



Hey Girls! Just wanted to let you all know that I'm still alive. And feeling a lot better. A lot more like myself. Captain America even mentioned it last time he visited. That he recognized me. I'd gotten pretty bad over the last month, and hadn't really recognized it.

Yesterday was a good day. And I'm liking the people a lot. George, Mara, Valencia and Karon. Good people. They are definitely making the stay a lot more enjoyable.

Today is Friday and I'm starting to get bored. hehe. I need something to wash or clean. ROFL! And if you'd seen my house this past month, that is a HUGE change for me. I was lacking in energy and didn't do anything. I'm looking forward to even little things, like chores. I just need to pace myself.

Faith Based Group was really good today. We talked about making the decision to be happy, and changing our lives to reflect that. Cut out the bad, and add in more good.

I want to make my home a better environment by the music, by the things we do and talk about in our house, having more of a spirit of prayer.

I want to start getting up earlier to get ready for the day, to pray and study, to journal my feelings. I'm looking forward to these changes. I think I was looking outside to find things to make me happy, when I should be finding things within to make me happy. I find myself craving those things now. The good things.

Right now, I'm in Faith Based Group, and I hope that this session is as good as this morning's session.

HA! It was! We're learning a lot about choosing our thoughts. It's so true!

It's now 3 PM, and I'm hanging out in free time. We really do have a lot of free time. 2 of my friends went home today. Our little group is getting smaller and smaller. I now have my own room. But I'll miss Karon. She was a good roommate! :-)

I wrote individual notes to each of the kids. I hope they like them, and I hope they know how much I love them. Because I really do love them. And while I feel bad that I left them to come here, I recognize that this will make me stronger for them. And they deserve that!


MemoryKeeper said...

Still praying for you my friend, and your family too. That was very important to write the kids, they will remember it forever. You are simply amazing!

Hugs from the heart,

Sarah said...

So glad that you're feeling optimistic for the future. Your children will love you for writing to them. Also, by you getting this help, you are showing them that it's ok to get help when you need it rather than struggle on alone.

((((hugs)))) and loads of love, Sarah C xx

Kimberly said...

You are on the right path! Keep up the good work. And I am so proud of you to know that what you had in your family is the true thing. It sounds like you have a wonderful husband (I know I do and I thank God for him everyday and for my family) and your children seem to be so loving too! Just think of what all you have to look to forward to once you start feeling 100% again! You go girl!
Hugs and prayers,

Melinda AKA medialady said...

Bethany, you sound (well I know I can't actually "hear" you - LOL) like you are feeling better. I have been following your progress and praying that you will be back to your regular self very soon! God is Good!

Dinphy said...

Bethany, It's amazing and a privilege to read and follow your way through this all. A privilege as this is so private, yet you share with us all. You are so brave and again generous doing that.
And amazing, because in really, just a few days, you sound like making so much progress, having such a change in spirit! I hope things will keep going this way for you, and that you'll feel all good and be back with your family again soon.

Thank you, Brent and Hilary, for keeping us all informed!

Unknown said...

Bethany -- your tone sounds so much better even in an email, glad you are feeling stronger and healthier and happier each day:)

Lorraine R said...

PTL!!! You are an encouragement to me. God bless you Bethany

Allanna said...

I'm glad that you're feeling so much better, Bethany! I'm glad that things are looking up!

You are amazing. I'm glad that the faith-based group is working. Sounds like you have some great goals! You're such an awesome example. We're rooting for you!

Anonymous said...

I JUST came across this PERFECT quote... for you and others (myself too, a while back!)

Depression is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign that you have been strong for too long.~ Author Unknown

Hugs, Crabcakes

Anonymous said...

It is so great to hear how you are sounding so much more centered and like your old self. You are doing all the right things. I know the kids love the notes, they reinforce your love.
We are all still praying for you. Hugs to you and yours

Diane said...

Waqy to go, Bethany!1 Chin up, Hilary - she'll be on her way soon from what I hear in her notes!! She's improved greatly!

What a blessing! God is GREAT!! (He's cheaper than therapy, too!)

Can't wait til Bethany returns to us. Missing her, too.

Be blessed & thank you & Brent for keeping us all updated.

Still all in my prayers, you too, Hilary!

D :)

Anonymous said...

Glad that you are doing better. Keep up the good work.

Unknown said...

Bethany, I'm so glad to hear that you're getting back to your old self, and making positive goals for when you go home. You're in my prayers, and I know you'll come out of this as a stronger person. You're right that your taking care of yourself will benefit your kids, also. I'm sure they'll be glad to have you back home. :)
Love ya!
- Shannon

madfam said...

I'm so glad to hear you're feeling better. I'm keeping you in my thoughts.

Mom2mykids said...

I agree with an earlier commenter, you "sound" so much better than you did for a while there! Chin up, and keep up the good work. I'm sure your kids will appreciate the letters from you. I always remember when my parents wrote me if I was gone or if they were gone somewhere. Thanks Hilary again for doing this so we can keep up with how Bethany's doing (and you too!). Hugs and prayers as always ...

helen scott said...

Glad to hear that you are well enough to write to all the kids, hoping it just keeps getting better. Love and prayers to all - Hilary how is your lil girl doing??

Jules said...

Hey Bethany, you are in my prayer. I admire you and am proud that you had the courage to face your fears and meet the depression face to face. Alot of women couldn't do what you are. Trust in the Lord your God and he will care for you. Your strength comes from him. Keep the faith girl!

God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble.
( Psalms 46:1 *NIV )

Jules said...

Hey Bethany, you are in my prayer. I admire you and am proud that you had the courage to face your fears and meet the depression face to face. Alot of women couldn't do what you are. Trust in the Lord your God and he will care for you. Your strength comes from him. Keep the faith girl!

God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble.
( Psalms 46:1 *NIV )

Christie said...

I've been away for two weeks so I just now read about everything that has happened. Bethany, I am thinking of you. What you are doing is brave and strong. I know you will be home in no time with a healthier, happier perspective and feeling like your old self again. Take good care of yourself... we love you!
AKA Digital Daisy, Hand Picked Freebies

Cris said...

I'm really happy about this post. It's great that you're getting better, and the best thing is that you're learning how to change your bad thoughts for good ones. Someone should warn Phil that this Bethany is someone he shouldn't be messing with ;).
I'm really glad for you girl, and for your family.
Kisses and a big hug from South America.
Cristina, from Buenos Aires, Argentina (the one who asked you to so the Ghandi Wordart: Be the change you want to see in the worl)

Anonymous said...

Hang in there Hilary. The news is good. God bless you Bethany.

Anonymous said...

Happy to hear things are moving in such a positive direction for you Bethany. It truly does seem like you have gotten so much out of this. I am sure your kids will cherish those notes.. and yes you are doing this for them, your family, friends.. and mostly for you.. so you can be your best. ;)

Baby steps... :)

Hugs, CanadaDiAnna

Anonymous said...

Thanks Hilary for keeping us updated.

Bethany I am glad to hear you are doing better. Keep up the good work. I will keep you in my prayers.


Sue said...

I'm so glad you're feeling better, Bethany. I am praying for you.

Anonymous said...

Bethany you have a beautiful spirit and I know the Lord is watching over you and helping you to heal and be healthy again. Please know I am praying for you and your family and friends. May you feel all the love that is coming your way from all of us out here who enjoy reading your blog everyday. May God Bless you and bring you the peace and health that you so bravely deserve. Love and Hugs to you our friend, Bethany.