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Saturday, September 25, 2010

Changing Seasons

Well, for having nothing planned for today, I was sure busy. hehe. Woke up at 5:55 am when Captain America left for PT and kinda slept till 6:35 when my alarm went off. I was mostly awake. I read my scriptures and said my prayers and did my morning routine. At 7am, I got breakfast for myself and the kids, and got them ready for school.

My head was feeling SUPER congested, so I took a decongestant. Yeah, not so good. I know it was the non-drowsy one, but it wiped me out. I laid back down in bed, and when Captain America got home around 8am, I was struggling to be coherent. He didn't look too good. Kinda like me when I was depressed. Poor guy :(

I convinced him to go back to Behavioral Health and ask for some meds. Cause I know they sure help me feel better. And I was sure they'd help him too. So I threw on some clothes (so much for my nap and shower) and drove him up there.

He got in right away to talk with someone, and I texted with Mandi and Andrea and my mom and my sister and Leslie and a few others. I was lightening fast - hehehe.

After about 45 minutes, he was done, and we had to head over to the TMC to see the BN Physician. We waited over there forever, then Captain America went back to see her. She prescribed him Celexa, which she said worked real good and fast. Sounded good to us.

We waited for our prescriptions, and saw Veronica there too! It was noon by the time we got done at the TMC (army doctor) and headed home. We'd called the Chaplain, and had set an appointment up for 1pm. So not time for lunch out, but definitely time to go home and eat (and shower!) and we both took our "happy pills". Yeah, we were a few minutes late getting back to our appointment, but hey, I looked a lot better - ha!

We met with the Chaplain, and explained all our problems (yeah, you don't even wanna know... hehe.. I don't blog about EVERYTHING, although you probably think I do - ha!). He gave us some counsel, and talked to us for a bit, and prayed with us, and off we went. We stopped by the Battery office on the way home, and he met with the Commander for a few minutes.

Captain America dropped me back off at home, and he went back to trainings. I grabbed my truck, and picked up Jimmy from the bus stop. Jim and I went to Walmart to spend his Birthday money! We stopped at Big Lots on the way there, but they didn't have anything $40 worthy. hehe. So we headed on to Walmart.

And let me tell you, a 5 year old in the toy department is NOT fun. We were there FOREVER! Or so it seemed. He finally decided on a Matchbox playset thing, and a remote control Lightening McQueen from Disneys CARS.

We went and looked at some stuff that I wanted to look at, got a few things we needed, and paid. Yeah, the flip flops that I bought for $0.50 were ringing up for $2.50 (and I bought 9 pairs.... you do the math...), but I didn't catch it until almost the end of the transaction, so the chickie just voided the whole order and re-rung it back. It took forever, but she was nice.

We headed home, and the big kids were home from school. They had a TON of fun helping Jimmy build his birthday presents. And yeah, he totally trashed the remote control in the first 30 minutes, but whatever. He's just a rough little boy, I guess...

And here's my new bedspread! It's perfect for fall :)
And I was noticing that my jewelry holder from Captain America is completely full, and I need an additional one, I think. hehehe. Or I need to stop going to Jewelry Box so often! ROFL!

I started on food for the kids, and it smelled SO good. Tomato, Basil, and Garlic pork. Mmmm, so good :) I cut those rolls in half, and made sandwiches for the kids. I just ate the meat, and LOVED it. With cucumbers :) And some microwave popcorn and an apple. See, I'm still eating :)

And after we ate, Captain America came home. Who was that happy, smiley man who came inside my house? He was laughing and joking and beaming. OK, whatever pills they gave him are MIRACLE drugs. He was crying and depressed and weepy this morning when he left. It was complete night and day.

So yeah, he's feeling better. hehe. We're getting ready to go out on our date night! I think we're gonna go see the Womens Soccer game at UTEP. Free for military, and you can't beat a free activity, right? hehe.

Popping back in here at 9pm. We did leave for our date, and drove over to UTEP, but yeah, we didn't know where the stadium was. hehe. So we drove around campus, and headed back to post. ROFL! But both of us were happy, and laughing, and it was all good.

We stopped for a soda at Howdy's, and headed to the Fallas by our house. I found the remaining curtains that I needed for my living room, and a clock, and a new sweater. I liked it :) I think I'm gonna wear it tomorrow, in fact :) And some unmentionables. I like those too - hehe.

We headed back home, put kids to bed, and realized that my head cold was catching up with me. My neck is tightening up, and I feel a migraine on it's way. I'm taking some decongestant, a migraine pill, and am gonna call it a night. Early :) Because we're babysitting Laurie's youngest kids tomorrow. Cause she's on vacation, and was delayed at the airport. And needs my help. And I'm just nice like that :) ha! And I DO owe her big from when she watched my kids when I went to St. Louis with Captain America.... I think the drugs are kicking in. I should stop before I say something embarrassing :) hehe.

Oh yeah, one more thing :) So we're switching wards (Bishop's already approved it). Our official statement is "We had a family issue that necessitated us moving wards". That's our story, and we're sticking to it. hehe. Y'all don't need to know every detail of my somewhat messed up life, you know. hehe.

Hondo Pass Ward is the ward that we were in originally when we moved here. It's a wonderful ward, and I still know a few people there. We're pretty excited about going there this coming Sunday :) AND, it starts at 11:30am. Woohoo!!! I get to sleep in!!! And my children know how to sleep in and leave me alone in the mornings :) ha! Lucky me :)

It's getting cooler where we live. Hoodie and long sleeve weather. Cause it's only in the 80's now. hehe. I thought you'd all appreciate that - ha! Click on the links below to go to my account to download the PNG file, and leave some love if you like my work. Thanks!

Friday, September 24, 2010

Blessings Bloom

Lookie, lookie! I designed! Aren't you proud of me! I can't even remember when I last had products new in the store - ha! Anyway, here's my new stuff! Click HERE to go to my store to check it out :) $2.00 per WordArt pack :)

And these adorable layouts were made by some of my Facebook Fans. Didn't they do a FANTASTIC job!!

Layout by Kimberly

Layout by Erin

Layout by Robin

So today was the first day of our LDS Marriage counseling. I know, LOTS of counseling as of late. I was first, one on one, then Captain America, yesterday, and today, us as a couple. I woke up at 6am, prayed, scriptured, and got ready. Yeah, no shower for me. I didn't have time. Yeah, next time, remind me that I REALLY wanna take a shower. Cause day old hair and make up isn't cutting it... hmmm.

We got the kids ready for school, and Captain America and I headed to our appointment. And we'd had a stupid little argument on the way over. Oh well, it lended itself well to an example of the squabbles we get into.

The guy talked to us about typical marriage problems, and said that we were right there with the group. OK, so at least we're not a-typical, right?

And he gave us some tips for better communication, and ways to get closer together. Part of my problem, with my transient lifestyle up to this point, is that I don't make many deep connections with people. I've had a few over my life, but not many. And my connection with Captain America isn't as deep as it should be.

SO, the doctor recommended that he and I work on our emotional connection. Which is gonna take a lot of time. So I need to focus on him more, and less on my friends. Which I know will help our marriage. And I really want my marriage to work. So don't be surprised to see less of my buddies, and more of my cute husband :) hehehe.

We stopped at Howdy's for a soda on the way home, and further discussed the things we'd talked about with our doctor. Sharing feelings and junk. That's good stuff.

We got home, got Jimmy ready for the bus, and drove him over to the bus stop. I know, it's only 1 block away. But it was raining, and I didn't feel like getting wet. And, of course, when I let him out of the truck, he ran STRAIGHT for a puddle and jumped in it. Sigh. He was dry when he left the house, at least.

I came back home, and started work on my designing. And was distracted, but got some work done. Captain America came home for lunch, and I hung out with him AND designed at the same time. I had fun showing him all the many steps that go into designing a WordArt pack and uploading it to a store. It's quite a process, let me tell you. I think he's glad he has HIS job and not mine.

I had 4 of the 5 WordArt packs designed (but not packaged) by 2:30pm. Captain America got Jimmy from the bus stop, and I picked up the other 3 kids from Elementary school, swung by the house and picked up Jake and Jim and Captain America, and we headed out to Jacob's appointment with Doctor Harvey. For the Autism thing.

He asked how Jacob was doing, and we answered honestly that he was doing a lot better. I think once we realized that Jacob was just Jacob, and stopped having unrealistic expectations of him, things went a TON more smooth. He was able to thrive in a better environment, and really is doing good. Dr. Harvey wants to meet with us every few weeks, and he'll keep giving us more tips on how to help Jacob.

We decided to eat in the Hospital cafeteria for dinner. Well, I did. I didn't wanna cook, since I still had designing to do, AND Joe had Cub Scouts to go to. Yeah, maybe we should have just gone home. hehe. It stressed me out, taking ALL these kids to the DFAC at the hospital. hehe.

He looks sweet and all, but RIGHT before this picture was taken, he farted so loud it vibrated the seat and EVERYONE in the cafeteria could hear, I'm sure.... sigh. Little boys...

Andrea had commented on this photo on my facebook account, that I looked somewhat smart and innocent. Um, yeah, I don't know how to take that - hehehe.
Yeah, those chicken bones are NASTY! They shouldn't be in my "somewhat smart and innocent" picture...
I got chicken and a salad, and Captain America got chicken, a salad, and some cooked spinach (ewww). Jake and Tom split a piece of pizza (because Tom took it before I could stop him, and once you touch it, it's yours...), had a cheeseburger and fries, and the other kids had grilled cheese and fries. Everyone got a soda, and had a cookie for dessert. And all that, for $20. Not too bad, to feed a family of 7...

We got home a little after 5:30pm, and I started designing. Captain America and Joe got ready to go to Scouts. Aren't they cute? It's Joe's first meeting with his Wolf stuff...

Kids played nicely among themselves, and did their chores, and let me design. I got the last WordArt pack designed, everything packaged, uploaded, products loaded, linked, and all was good.

I texted with Andrea for a while, and got a few Facebook Fans to make layouts to go with my new WordArt products. All in all, it was a VERY productive day.

We put the kids to bed before 8pm, and Captain America and I hung out for a while. And we even went on a walk. Check out me in my workout clothes. Amazing that it was still warm enough outside for me to wear this. hehe.
My therapist said that starting to exercise was one of my "homework assignments". So here's my proof that I own cute workout clothes, um, er, exercised! No really, we walked for about 25-30 minutes. That's not too bad, to start.

I grabbed a laptop after the walk, Captain America went to sleep, and I started blogging. I already had the pictures loaded, and the WordArt designed and linked. I just had to add the words. It's now 11:31pm, and I'm ready for bed. Tomorrow won't be such a crazy day. No doctors appointments. No plans. No work deadlines. Just a relaxing day :) hehe

Oh yeah, and on the medication front, I've decided taking the Prozac in the morning is not good. It makes me sleepy during the day. BUT, taking the Prozac at night is not good, either. About 6 hours after I take it, I get a BUZZ. Yeah, I totally woke up at 4am last night, and COULD not fall back asleep. It was horrible.

So I took it at noon today. And there was a little bit of drowsiness, but not horrible. And around 6pm, I hit a BUZZ time, and it served me well for designing. And now it's late, and I'm feeling sleepy again. I'll let you know how I sleep tonight. I'd really like a sleeping pill, so I get a good nights sleep, but I wanna see how taking the pill at noon affects me, and I don't wanna taint the experiment. hehe.

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Thursday, September 23, 2010

This is Freakin' Awesome!

Morning, Girls! Another week almost over. How the time flies... I remember when I was a little kid, how it took FOREVER for time to pass. Seemed like forever between holidays and summers and anything fun. And now that I'm an adult, it's flying by SUPER fast! I wonder why that is?

Anyway, it was a good day. I got up 10 minutes earlier than normal, at 6:35am, said prayers, did morning routine, read scriptures, and headed out to get the kids ready. Got them dressed and fed and out the door at 7:30am. Then Captain America came home, and the two of us got ready for the day. I showered and fixed myself and was ready for the day :)

I left the house at 9:15am and went grocery shopping. Kid free. See, I'm taking it easy. We DO need to eat, after all.

Check it out, I had to wait for all these troops to pass before I could make my way to the commissary. ha!

I got a weeks worth of groceries, and headed home. Jake helped me unload everything and put it away.

Captain America was meeting with the LDS therapist at 11am, and we needed to leave at 10:40am to get there on time. He came home and was ready to leave once I got the last bag put away. Perfect timing, right?

Jacob agreed to get Jimmy to the bus, and Captain America and I headed to the West side together. I texted and read my book, and even finishd it off. It's "The Mockingjay", the final book in the Hunger Games trilogy. Dang, it was a good read. I won't say anything else for those of you who haven't read it yet. Fitting ending to the story, though.

Captain America was done in about an hour and 20 minutes, and it was after noon. So he and I went to El Taco Tote, which was near where we met the therapist, and had lunch. I LOVE El Taco Tote :)

But let me tell you, it was SPICY! I wasn't used to it being so hot. Probably because I wasn't used to eating much of anything. I seriously thought my lips and tongue were going to burn off! But it was soooo good, I couldn't stop myself - hehehe.

Here's me in the car after lunch
Since I was already on the West side, and since 2 of my friends had a mini shopping trip planned on the West side, I decided to join them. Captain America dropped me off at Savers, and continued on to work. My friends picked me up :)

Here's Aimee and Hilary and I, wearing crazy Halloween hats at the store. And I just have to say that it really did fit on my head. Hilarys hat just bumped mine when I took the picture. I know my heads big and all, but it DID fit - hehe

And I tried this one on, and they snapped a picture of me while I was on the phone with my mom :)

I walked around a bit and looked at a few things, just taking it slow. I think I was tired today too, which didn't help. I'm sure my friends thought I was kinda boring - hehe. I did find a few long sleeve shirts, and got them both for under $7.

Next, we went to the Outlet mall. Old Navy for Aimee to look at a few things. Yeah, Hilary and I decided that it was WAY too expensive. $4 for a shirt? Not when I could go to Savers on 50% off or $.99 day! hehe. I know, I'm cheap :)

So Old Navy was a fast trip, then on to the Jewelry Box. I found a few things that I liked, paid, and we were done. See, we can do a fast shopping trip.

We dropped Aimee back off at her car, and Hilary dropped me back off at my house. The kids were JUST getting home from school. Perfect timing :)

I got the kids a snack, and tried to lay down for a nap, but couldn't fall asleep. Even as sleepy as I felt, I couldn't stop my brain. So I grabbed Captain Americas laptop, and started blogging and fixing my Facebook pictures. I helped Eme with some homework, and let the kids play outside for a while.

It's gonna be leftover night for dinner, because we have 3 different leftover in the fridge. hehe. I'm gonna eat cheese and cucumbers, because I had a HUGE lunch. And all the other stuff I'm supposed to eat, too. My fruit and such. Don't worry, I'm eating what I'm supposed to :)

We have Scouts tonight at 7pm, and I think Captain America has a work meeting at that same time. I hope I stay awake until then - ha!

Well, I had a few minute to pop back on here after scouts :) I ended up chatting for about 45 minutes with my neighbor Leigh, then Veronica dropped by some leftover birthday cake from her sons birthday for my crew to have. Cause we need cake - LOL!

So, because the kids were DYING to eat the cake, I placed all 3 containers of leftovers on the counter, cut the cake, and said "You can eat the cake AFTER you eat some dinner". Yeah, they all chose what they wanted, ate it quickly, and dug into the cake. Ha!

Hunter and Braxton (Leslie's kids) were over, and had left overs with us, and cake too. I guess even cake was leftovers, so it fit with leftover night, huh? ha! Captain America came home around that time, too.

I ate my cheese and cucumbers with crakers, and an apple, and a few carrots, and I even had a little slice of cake. About 4 bites were more than enough for me. It was SUPER good, but too sweet for me. Tasty, though.

At 6:45pm, we loaded up all the kids and Braxton and Hunter and Captain America (apparently he didn't have a meeting after all!) and headed to Scouts as a family. It was a pack meeting for Cub Scouts, so everyone but Jake and Hunter went there. It was a good meeting. They're trying to get their year of scouting lined up, and met with the parents while the boys went and played games with one of the leaders. It was pretty good. Except for the fact that the air conditioner wasn't on, and it was a SUPER humid day for El Paso. I KNOW! El Paso is NOT supposed to be humid. What's up with that, huh?

We loaded up all the kids and drove home after the meetings. We made the kids do their chores again, and I designed my freebie. Here it is, almost 9pm, and we need to do family prayer and put those rug rats in bed. I'm sleepy, and I haven't even taken my pill yet. I switched it to the evenings. I think it helped with the daytime tiredness, a bit. I may have been more sleepy today because I decreased my caffeinated soda consumption. ha!

So while at the outlet mall today, I saw this sign, and I don't know why it impressed me as funny. I guess because it might be something that I say, but I don't expect other people to think/say it too. ha! So, I decided to WordArt it up for y'all! Enjoy!

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Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Shiny Happy People

Hey there peeps! How is life out in blog land?? Good, I hope :) Life in the Harty household is moving forward, slowly but surely. Poor Captain America. He's been having a hard time since I came home. I think the weight of the depression, and our issues, and past stuff finally caught up with him, and it was just too much. And after a lengthy discussion (read:fight), he finally admitted that he needed someone to talk to also. Thank goodness. The poor guy can't do it all on his own. And I KNOW that talking to someone is the right thing to do.

I'd gotten up at 6:45am, said my prayers, did my morning routine, got the kids up and going, cooked them eggs, did family prayer and scriptures with them, sent them to the bus at 7:30am, then Captain America came home and we talked until 10am. I think he felt a little better. He headed in to work to talk to his Commander, and I got ready for the day.

And decided that something needed done with these bananas. Can you even tell that they're bananas???

Super nasty! BUT, banana bread and banana cookies are good with old nasty bananas, you know.

So since I was trying to stay closer to home, and take y'alls advice, Hilary stopped by to see me since I wasn't going out to play. She'd just come from the doctor, and we visited for about an hour. It was nice :)

And while she was there, I got some flowers! Look how WONDERFUL they are!!!
They're from my boss, Maya, Mick, and all the crew and girls at Scrapbookgraphics! Isn't that FABULOUS! I was touched :) And my kids thought it was the coolest thing EVER. I've never got flowers at the front door before!

Hilary went home around 11:45, and I gathered up all my ingredients for cookies. I decided on Banana cookies with Lemon frosting. Sounded SO good. I didn't know if I was gonna eat one or not, but they sounded good. Good to smell, right?

Anyway, Captain America texted and said that he could come with me to my 1pm LDS Therapist appointment, and that I should get the map all ready. So I put away the cold ingredients, and left the others on the counter, and got ready to go. It was gonna take about 20 minutes to get there, and we wanted to be on time.

Come to find out, it was directly across the street from where Jimmy had his tonsillectomy. Go figure! We got there a good 15 minutes early, and he and I chatted and hung out in the waiting room. The therapist guy came out, had me fill out papers, and took me back. Captain America stayed in the lobby.

And we talked for about an hour and 20 minutes. I told him everything that had been going on, how I felt, what I was thinking, all my problems and struggles and issues and everything. And you know what? It was really nice to talk to someone. Who knew I could talk that much. Ha!

He knew just what questions to ask me to get me to talk more, and helped me see myself a little clearer. He said that my relationships, in general, don't seem to be very deep, in part, because of my "transient" lifestyle. And that's totally true. I don't live near my family, and haven't in a long while. Or by Captain Americas family. We've moved 17 times in 14 years of marriage, 3 years being the longest in any one place.

He told me that I really needed to think about this and how it's affected me. We also talked about how I'm a "people pleaser", and I go with the flow and change to conform to any given situation. He told me to think a lot about what I really need. And what makes me truly happy. Yeah, I usually just go with the flow and try to make others happy. So I have some homework for this week. He also said start reading my scriptures today. I was gonna start getting up 10 minutes earlier to add scripture study in, so I think tomorrow is the day for that :)

We talked about food issues, and negative body image, and he said that we'd talk more about that next time. I told him about not eating for 2 weeks, and about slowly getting off of my original diet and back on the refeed portion. Because I didn't want to hurt my stomach. He asked if my stomach was hurting the past few days, I said no, so he said to get back on refeed NOW and start exercising. Sigh. OK, I agreed to it. hehe. I stressed me out just thinking about it - ha! But I"ll do it.

We tied it up, Captain America set up an appointment to talk with him tomorrow, we both might go back Thursday morning, and we headed back out. Jacob, thankfully, picked up Jimmy from the bus, and I went with Captain America to his therapist appointment on post. His commander had recommended him going there. I sat in the lobby this time, and played on facebook and texted and checked emails. He came out about 40 minutes later, set an appointment for next week, and off we went.

He dropped me off at home and headed back to work. The kids were all home except for Tom. Apparently, he'd been signed up for after school PE (AQ), while I was in the hospital, and today was the first day. Yeah, I'd missed that. So I hurried up to the school and got him. He'd only been waiting for 35 minutes. Sorry, Tom. At least he's a 5th grader, and was just sitting on the steps of the school reading and listening to him MP3 player. Totally content. Pfew!

We went home, and I started on the cookies. See, this batter doesn't look nasty at all!
It made a TON of cookies. I was wishing for less batter, but sigh. That bag of bananas warranted a double batch. hehe.
And the yummy lemon frosting. Yeah, SO good :)
At the same time I was making the cookies, I made dinner for the kids. Spaghetti. Yeah, it was tiring me out. And I was making a mess of the kitchen. Sigh. Hilary suggested taking my Prozac at night rather than in the morning, because it's possible that it's making me sleepy. Anyone else have any experience with anti-depressants? Does time of day make a difference? Should I switch to evenings?

Anyway, I was exhausted when I finished with everything. AND I still needed to make something for myself. As tempted as I was to just skip dinner, I cooked up 2 pieces of Tilapia and steamed some carrots/zuccheni/squash. It was really quite good. I ate one of the cookies (SO good), and cooked up a bag of light kettle corn popcorn, which I ate the whole bag of. See, adding more foods in :) I was proud of myself.

Captain America got home around that time, and saw how tired I was. He took the kids to the park for 20 minutes, and told me to hop on the computer and design and blog. What a sweetheart. I just heard the kids come back in, and it's 7:30pm. We're gonna put kids to bed, drag the MASSIVE pile of laundry into the living room, watch an episode of Lie to Me, and fold laundry. Then spend some quality time together. Sounds like a great plan for the evening :)

Well, I did try and not be so busy today. There's just way to much to do, I think. hehehe.

So here's your WordArt freebie for the day :) Hope you like it! Click on the link below to go to my account to download the PNG file, and leave some love if you like my work. Thanks!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Close to your Soul

Morning, chicas! How's everyone doing? Me? I'm real good! It was a great day back. I tried to take it easy. Really, I did. hehe. OK, so maybe I didn't accomplish "taking it easy", but I did attempt it :)

I woke up 10 minutes early to make sure I had enough time for scriptures and prayers. Well, I got the prayers part in. I was sleepy and ended up checking texts on my phone. hehe. BUT, I did get the prayer in. And that's HUGE for me :) It made me feel good, though.

I even went out and made blueberry muffins for the kids for breakfast! I know, so much for taking it easy :) I found some trail mixes in my purse, and yeah, I'm not eating those anymore! After only eating those for 2 weeks, I'm done with trail mix. I'll stick to real food. So I divided them up for the kids, along with the muffins, and that was breakfast.

We had prayer, and got kids ready, and sent them out to the bus at 7:30am. Captain America came home 30 seconds after family prayer. Oops. Tomorrow... We hung out for a bit, then Jimmy and I headed out around 8:30am for the store.

I had a HUGE Walmart list, plus needed to go and pick up my meds at Walgreens, plus wanted to hit Big Lots and Savers. And all before 10:50am for Jimmys bus. I had high hopes :)

Here's me, ready for my day :) No shower for me, because I'd given my conditioner to Valincia, one of my friends from the hospital, cause she didn't have any. Hope you like it, girl :) Anyway, now I need to go to Walmart and buy some more conditioner.

We went and picked up Hilary, and she came to do errands with us. First, to the pharmacy. Yeah, my truck was SO loud that I totally had to turn it off when I stopped at the drive thru. hehe. Don't hate on the truck. I LOVE it so :)

Next, we drove across town to Savers. It was silver tag day, and yeah, there were a TON of silver tags when it was blue tag day. Hmmm, I'm thinking they go in and switch the colors of the tags the night before... I know there was a TON of orange tags today... Seems a bit fishy...

I did try on a pair of 5/6 jeans, and they were HUGE. Yeah, must have ran big, because I'm between a 6 and a 7. Made me smile, none the less. Not that I want to lose any more weight. Cause I don't. I'm good at this weight. Maybe even a few lbs heavier (gasp!). I was 129lbs when I was committed, and I'm now 132. 135 would be good for me, I think. But I'm not gonna go rushing it or anything :)

Anyway, I did find a cream sweater for $0.99, and a Columbia coat for only $5.99, and a REALLY cute cream coat for $5.99. I got a few more insulated lunch bags, and a little bag of toys for Jimmy, and called it good for the day. And yeah, that was all the time we had.

See, cute coat, huh? I LOVED it :)

I dropped Jimmy off at school, cause we'd just missed the bus, then dropped Hilary back off at her house, then headed home. Captain America got there a few minutes before me for lunch! It was so nice to hang out with him during lunch :)

We were gonna take our trailer back over to Captain America's buddy Joe's house, but he got called back in for a meeting, so we turned back around and left the truck and trailer hooked up in front of our house.

Hilary and I went to Walmart and Sams after lunch, then back to pick up Jimmy from the bus. I even managed to get all the things on my list.

Kids had after school school snack, and I went to lay down for a while, cause I was tired. Yeah, I didn't sleep, but I did rest. And the kids were SO loud out there. Sigh. Yeah, I wasn't ready for that part. All the fighting and bickering was wearing on me. :( But they're just kids, right?

I decided to put on some PINK!

At 5:45pm, we headed over to the Nouhans house for dinner. We had pot roast and salad, and the kids had corn and mashed potatoes. Jannie's b-day was on Saturday, and tonight was her birthday dinner. They also had ice cream and brownies, which looked really good, but I resisted.

Captain America came a little after 7pm, and we went home around 7:45pm. I think everyone had fun. I drove Captain Americas car home with the little kids, and Captain America took the big ones and dropped off the trailer at Joe's house, got a part for his truck, then came back home.

I'd gotten the kids in bed, and was working on my blog. It's now 10:06pm, and I'm feeling really sleepy. Captain Americas worried that I'm doing too much too soon. And wants me to take the rest of the week off from playing. And yeah, while I can see his point, I really do like playing. It makes me happy. Maybe my friends can come and visit me if I'm at home resting??? hehe.

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Monday, September 20, 2010


Hey all :) I am super happy to be home! I woke up this morning at 5:30am with my migraine back, but luckily, I had my meds at the nurses station, and was able to take them. Thank goodness! I ate a few crackers, took the pill, and went back to sleep. I woke up what I thought was 7am. Since I didn’t have a watch, and there was no clock in the room, I decided to take a shower. When I was done and dressed and make up on, I trotted down to the nurses station to get my hair dryer, and saw that it was 7:15am. I guess I got up a bit before 7am, but not much. It works for me. Hehe.

I didn’t want to wake up my roommate, Antonia, so I blow dried my hair in my bathroom, without a mirror. It looked ok, I think. Ha! When I was done, I went out and chatted with a new guy, Kevin , for a while. Hes from Ruidoso. Seemed like a nice guy. I know that when I first got there, the people were very nice and kind and made sure that I was included, so I wanted to do the same for him. Because it’s the right and nice thing to do.

We went to breakfast at 8:15am, and I actually got seconds. My friends were all proud. I had double portion of eggs, with sugar free syrup on it. Mmmm, tasty. Hehe. I may have to start eating my eggs that way.

After breakfast, we all sat around and chatted for a while. Mara and I looked at the sale ads, and I missed Savers… I’m not a mall girl, by any means… hehe. They did have some cute things, though.

I read in my book, The Mockingjay (Hunger Games trilogy, #3) for a few minutes, and soon it was time to go to 1oam group. I knew I was getting discharged today, but just didn’t know when. Whenever the doctor came to make his rounds, he’d see me, then sign the discharge papers. They were all ready to go.

Group was good. We talked about relationship styles, and how we look at life. It was good to recognize which category I fell into, so I could see my strengths and weaknesses and work with them, not against them.

About 15 minutes before the end of group, the Tech came to get me to see the doctor. Woohoo! He made sure that I was doing good, gave me the prescription for my meds, signed the papers, and I went to pack my stuff. I was going home!

Captain America was in the lobby waiting for me, and I packed my suitcase, left my contact info with my friends, and headed out. It was SOOO good to see him. I was so happy! We stopped at the drive up Walgreens window for my prescription, and headed home. The house was mostly clean, Captain America had gotten me a potted flowering plant for the living room, and there were even some groceries in the house. It was PERFECT!

The kids were home within 30 minutes from church, and we had lunch and hung out. I was SO excited to see them, and I think they were excited to see me too. Hilary came by to say hi, and chatted for about 20 minutes, then headed home. She’s been a huge help to me and my family while I was gone. Thanks, girl!

Captain America and I had made bagel sandwiches for the kids before they got home, and started on making Jimmy a birthday cake. We finished that up, and put it in the oven to bake. We watched a Sunday movie, Testaments, then assembled the cake.

At around 2:30pm, we had Jimmy’s family birthday party. 2 layer carrot cake with cream cheese frosting. Mmmm, it looked SOOOO yummy. We lit the candles, sang to him, gave him his presents, and ate the cake. I put ½ of it in the freezer for a later date, and dished the other ½ up. I even had a ½ of a slice. I meant to eat the whole thing, but it was SO sweet. Still, it was good! And the first real sugar I’ve had in a long time. I don’t think anyone finished all of their cake. So no there’s left over cake on the counter. I figure kids can nibble on it for the rest of the day, and I’ll just throw the left overs away at bed time. I already have a whole ½ of the cake frozen, no need for more in the fridge, right?

We’d thought about putting in a movie to watch and nap on the couch, but I’m tired of the TV. It was on the whole time at the hospital, and pretty noisy. I would like some nice, peaceful music. I wonder if I have any….

It’s now after 3pm, and I’m taking some time to journal. I found it very helpful in the hospital, and its something I want to continue. Not only journaling my blog, but journaling some feelings and thoughts and such also.

But I did want to tell everyone thank you for understanding what I went through. I have not yet been online. I decided to take a break until Monday. I didn’t even turn my phone on on Sunday. Or check emails or anything. I wanted to just spend the day with my family and get back into life slowly. So, tomorrow, I’ll go check the blog and see my email and such. I heard that people left such sweet notes and such. Many thanks in advance! It’s nice to know that so many of you care. BIG HUGS!!!

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Homecoming Day: Sunday!

I didn't get a chance to talk with Bethany on the phone today. I chatted a bit with Captain America before he saw her. He dropped off her blog post but I didn't see him when he had. From the sounds of her post, she still is doing well and is excited to be coming home tomorrow. So thank you for letting me fill in for Bethany as she will be taking her blog back tomorrow. Now, now, don't applaud too loudly! I wasn't *THAT* bad! hehe



Hola, ladies! Greetings from the funny farm. Hehe. Just kidding. Oh wait. That's where I am! Ha! But you still love me, right?

Things are good here. Looks like I'll be able to go home on Sunday! I told my husband to take the kids to church, and line up rides for them to get home, and he could come here and pick me up. Probably after breakfast they'll start working on discharge papers. That's what I've seen so far.

I ended up with a migraine last night, and it's still here today. I'm trying to get some meds for it, but it's like pulling teeth in this place. It's a cross between being treated like a little child and an inmate! LOL! Good thing I'm a "go with the flow" kind of person, right?

My old roommate, Karon, called me this morning to see how everyone was doing. She's a very nice lady. We chatted for a few minutes.

I got called out of the beginning of group to be seen by the doctor, but am still waiting. 30 minutes, so far. I wish they'd left me in group, but it has given me a chance to write. And I'm loving writing my feelings and thoughts. It's really been helping a lot. To organize and express what I think and feel. A chance to reflect and ponder on things. It's been real good.