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Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Sad Face Freebie

So. I took the weekend off like I said that I was gonna start to do. And here it is, Monday night. And Monday was a good day in general. But then i took Jake to practice with me, and after the 2nd practice we had a melt down, and I was just DONE. I got cussed out, and Joe got cussed out, and I was just mentally done.

I spent the 3rd practice in the car crying. Good thing it was dark. I don't want to have a special needs kid anymore. I don't want to check his pockets for things like matches and lighters and pocket knives. And I don't wanna make sure that he takes his meds, because if he doesn't, he will beat me or the other kids up. I'm tired of it all.

And as I sit here and write this, I'm sobbing again. I'm tired of it all. We are looking into residential treatment facilities for Jake. Something has to give. It can't go on like this. Someone is going to get hurt. We have an appointment with the therapist tomorrow. Hopefully we can get the application process started. Pray for us... I don't know what else to do at this point...

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6 comments:

Jodie said...

You poor thing. I know it is a tough decision, but you have to do what is the best thing for you and your family. I'll be praying for you!!!

Laura W said...

Sending you big hugs and lifting you up in prayer. I personally know it can be a struggle, but you have to do what is best for everyone in your home. I pray you get the support you need
hugs

Merry said...

Bless you for all that you are trying to do...you have your hands full and your entire family is lifted up in prayer, know that you are loved and my thoughts are with you all... Ü

Sue said...

This has to be very hard on you. I pray that you can have some healing times now.

Robin said...

I'm sending lots of prayers your way. I know that God will lead you in your decisions.

jenjenjasp said...

Bethany, as a mom with a son with aspergers - I am so sorry for what you have to deal with every day with Jake.

I hope you know that you guys really are in my prayers. I know our Father in Heaven has a plan - just sometimes we can't figure out why or how? I feel that for Caleb at times, too.

Loves - and I know it will be okay. Somehow.